stressful weekend....

A test of life

 

 

Ever since going to the evaluation with Dr Sivalal, i find myself change. I don't know if it's for the better, but it felt the same when we were all shuffled in form 2.

I ACTUALLY PREPARED FOR PCL??!! i cant believe it, hehe but it felt good. hoping that it will meet up to expectation. keeping my fingers crossed.

besides this I'm actually taking the small test from study buddy this Monday seriously. I actually wanna do my best in it, but there's just too many things to study. Speaking of studying, i haven had a rest from studying until now. When i say i haven't had a rest is from coming back from uni on Friday until today. I have a feeling why i'm so desperate to study is because I'm frustrated with results that i keep having. Cried when i saw that bloody result slip. I think I studied hard but still the same old trashy result. Told Dr sivala about this and he said to start your own study group. i did that, but it was my first time studying in a group. Surprisingly it was quite good. Well thats just, i dont know what the others think. 

hmmmm... aparently physiology was my worst much much below average. i thought physiology was easy when studying... i guess i underestimate it. oh well i'll try harder next time. 

All this studying is making me depressed, i havent gone out of the house once! Even to eat. How sad! Only listening to my music and studying. downloaded some sad songs (okay maybe not sad but soothing songs) to listen and study. luckily there's baek ji young and SHINee (my bias).

no time for WGM, k-pop, allkpop, teentop, shinee, sistar, beast, super junior, taeyang, bigbang, music, drama, singing, all of which were my fav things to do during the holiday. How i wish i could just sing my whole life and not study my whole life, but THATS LIFE! u wish u could do many  things, but the fact is that you cant! shyt! those who get to sing n perform better appreciate the chance they got! i feel like crying, but i know it wont help one bit. Crying only makes thing worst, u just feel tired and moody and end up not doing anything. U just have to face the problem head on! FIGHTING!